Continuation of the ordeal

Am back again to continue the story...

So as I was about to be discharged, I couldn't pee as yet and the gynae said that if I couldn't pee by the time of discharge, they would reinsert the catheter in and I had to take the catheter home. I remembered that one of my friends had to do so and that got me real worried. I didn't want to have the catheter at home. So I prayed for God's grace and right before I was discharged, pee started to come out and boy was I relieved.

So I went home happy with Baby. According to PD, he did not have jaundice and all was well with Chase. When we reached home, baby was very unsettled maybe due to the unfamiliar surroundings and because my milk supply hasn't kicked in. This day appeared to be the worst day of my entire life as it hurt so bad to see Chase cry with his quivering chin...wailing away so loud and I am totally helpless. KC was very encouraging and told me to persevere on. I tried but it was so difficult. By the second day, I had to get one of my cell mate to come and help me. She even offered a little bit of her milk supply to Chase to help him tide through. Before dawn broke, my milk supply kicked in and I was jumping for joy. Thank God for allowing me not to give up.

Later on, he started to establish Jaundice and he had to be readmitted for a couple of nights whereby the first night they gave him formula milk but the second night I admitted myself in to make sure he got his food supply. I was happy to stay with him because the house felt so different without him.

Now that he is well and the jaundice is slowly subsiding, I thank God every day for the miracles. The current problem I face is that I can't express my milk out whereas everyone else can. It really is a mystery. But I am sure it will eventually happen.

Right now, I enjoy the two night feeds with him and the dependence he has on me. It is truly endearing to have him suckle on the nip. It is a real experience. I am indeed grateful for such a wonderful and natural process.