The arrival of our little one

It's been awhile since I last blogged. Reason being because I was trying to settle down with Baby Chase being with us. It has been a real experience for both me and KC. However, before I forget all that has happened, I had better blog it all down. Despite my gynae saying that I will suffer from Amnesia eventually, I beg to differ and if I do have a second one, it would probably be a very informed decision. :)

So here goes the event happenings:-

On the 14th of December, I returned from my in laws place as usual. Usually upon my return, I'll have a shower and then hit the sack ready to catch a movie. Anyway, before I could do so, I had realised there was stain on my liner. Yes, it was the "show".

Immediately, I told KC and asked him to call the emergency hotline to ask for my gynae. I took a shower and washed my hair. KC did as told and after which he too took a shower. I answered my gynae's call and spoke to her saying I stains on my liner. She said it could be the "show" or something else and asked me to get myself admitted and head straight to the labour ward. And so I relayed this message to KC and we did as told. Luckily I had packed my hospital bag, but there are always last minute items that we had to stuff in.

KC rushed to the Glen E and I sat in the car thinking what was awaiting me in the hours ahead. When we reached the labour ward, there was a sister in the ward and she attended to us. She asked me to change into their gown and then she had to check how dilated my cervix was and then had to call my gynae to inform her. So I changed into my gown and did my business. I asked her how was she going to check and she said she was going to stick her fingers in. There was only going to be a little discomfort but it won't be pain. Who would have known that was a lie. She actually stuck her entire fist in because she said my cervix was right behind and she couldn't reach it!!! Boy was that painful...and when she pulled out her hands, her entire glove was covered with blood.

Later on my gynae came and said that she too had to stick her fingers in to measure the dilation!! I was so furious...Why couldn't one person have done it?? Why was there a need to verify. Anyway, so my gynae stuck her hand in and said, " I was 2cm dilated." Then she went on saying that she had to burst my waterbag manually. And so she went ahead to burst the bag with her fingers. After that, my contractions became more intense compared to the many braxton hicks I had experience throughout the day and the day before.

Before my gynae left the room, I asked her if the manipulation at my cervix awhile ago would be more or less painful than the crowning. When she said that manipulation was nothing, I straight away told her to administer epidural. I didn't want to be garang anymore. I didn't want to try going through labour without assistance. She then said she was going next door to do a C-section and later she would send the anaesthetic over. I said ok.

As I waited, the sister came in and said she wanted to clear my bowel. Then I said, I had already done my business earlier. Whew..thank God...if not they would have stuck something up my anus hole. One close shave...Subsequently, as I waited the contractions started to hurt more and more. Now I realise once your waterbag burst you are able to feel the contractions more intense.

Then the Anaesthetician finally arrived. He was a very assertive man. Filled with confidence too. I felt safe in his hands. He started by putting a mark on my bag. But when he did that, it tickled me. He kept telling me to hold still, but it was difficult as I am a very tense person and the slightest touch at certain areas makes me laugh. However that was eventually done and I am glad that went well.

Once epidural was administered, it was a breeze from then on. I fell asleep while waiting for the dilation and moved my legs occasionally because they felt real heavy. The nurses strengthen and lessen the dosage when necessary. When morning came, and I was fully dilated, the nurse asked me to push.

Within three pushes, baby's head surfaced out...And KC kept encouraging me saying he could see the hair and all. When the nurses asked me to stop pushing, another contraction came and that naturally pushed the head out. But because the gynae has yet to arrived, the nurses had to hold the baby's head from coming out. Baby was so eager to come out to this world.

Soon after, the gynae came to deliver the baby and KC cut the umbilical cord. KC did not catch magical moments though as he was overwhelmed with emotions and forgot to take much pictures. After cutting the cord, they put baby on my chest, however I did not get to breastfeed him as I had to be rushed to the operating theatre for more mending. (Explained later) While KC was looking at Baby Chase, the gynae was mending my tear. No episiotomy was done on me but since there was a shallow tear, she had to mend it. After mending it, she still saw blood and was worried. She said that the lighting in the labour ward was not strong enough and she had to rush me to the operating theatre before the epidural wore out.

This was my first time going into an operating theatre. My gynae even mentioned that if she couldn't find out what was wrong, she had to undo the stitches she had done in the labour ward to see where was the bleeding coming from. Luckily the light was strong enough and she identified a second tear at my cervix area. There again she tugged and mended the tear and used a vacumn to suck out all the blood since I was at the operating theatre

I later waited a long time for them to wheel me back to the ward to see my precious and KC. I had to ask them to cepat!! Haha....This whole process was indeed tiring and it last about 10 hours. It was truly an experience. My privates was so swollen due to all the manipulation it was put through. It felt like it would never function again. Haha...At the last day, when I had my catheter removed, I couldn't pee still and was so worried. Thank God, eventually the pee came out and I could be dischaged without the catheter.

When asked by the gynae what I thought about the entire event...I told her I had never felt so abused at my underpart before. She just laughed and said she had no choice but to burst the waterbag. But she didn't understand the fact that before she did that, someone else had already beaten her to it. The pain was horrible and I hope never to be reminded about it.

However, I thank God for this precious little thing that has entered KC and my life. Indeed he has brought us joy ever since though the first few days was really hard to adjust. Will continue the story in my next entry....

Brazilian Wax

I just have got to write a short update today before the memory of my first Brazilian Wax leaves me. *wink*

After my thursday doc's appointment, all is well. Updates on Xiaogua is that he is doing great and the amniotic fluid is still borderline but not critical. Xiaogua is still very active and squirming a lot inside. I told him to stay in until the 38th week which would be this coming Thursday before he comes out. Just to be sure he is a matured fetus and his lungs are full developed though it is more or less safe now.

But I still have so much to do!!! I need to get a lot of things done before I get warded and welcome him into the family. Anyway, the doctor gave me permission to go for my first brazilian wax and so CL and I went together. CL was so kind to introduce me honeypot and I thought the experience was well lived.

We reached there on time and I talked a lot to the waxer who did me. She was rather gentle and pressed whenever she tore. So the sensation wasn't that bad. Though my there was very tender, but the pain was bearable. She said my skin was rather sensitive and was a bit on the dry side. So since then, I have been putting lotion. So far there is no side effects although immediately after the wax, there was this tingling sensation.

Anyway, overall the experience was more pleasant than I thought it would be. Right now, I work from home and talk to my friends online as and when. The feeling is more relaxing than working from office I suppose. I am tired but can't sleep. Thought websites keep saying, try to relax as much as you can now. :)

Also, I just came back from my Aunt's house and overall it was a great gathering. They mentioned that we can't get in touch with our cousins anymore. I found that weird but well, I guess there's a reason why no one seems to be able to get in touch with them anymore. I am glad I still can get in touch with them as and when I need to talk to them about work. I hope and pray they will always remain a part of us.

Till the next time, maybe there will be pictures of the little one.

36 weeks

Today I am into my 36 weeks and I am not taking a break at all!!! Haha....yups there are tons to do to occupy me until I pop. That's right! I have yet to move out of my office but things are wrapping up. We just managed to sell our furnitures!! Yes yes...consider it sold!! I am so so happy that that is done.

I have to finish reformatting the PCs by the 30th of November. I believe I will be able to do that on time if I concurrently do both PCs. But I am withholding doing so in the event one doesn't get reformatted the way I want it then at least I can resolve it first.

Anyway, just want to update base on my last gynae check up. Xiaogua as of 19 November, he was 2.5kg. And I bet he is heavier now...Doctor gave an assessment that the amniotic fluid is low but not critical. She immediately gave me hospitalisation leave for the following week as she didn't want anything to happen to me as she would be away for a trip.

We asked her what was the cause of the low amniotic fluid and she said because the placenta was not fuctioning at its optimal and thus Xiaogua is not urinating enough to contribute to the amniotic fluid. We then further asked what could be the reason for the placenta not functioning optimally, and she said it was most likely due to stress. KC and I looked at each other and I pondered aloud. "Was I really that stress?" Haha....

She also asked me to monitor Xiaogua's movements and if there was a dip in the frequency to go straight into A&E. During the appointment, she also did a strap B test and I am currently waiting for the results. Hopefully there is no infection.

I am not suppose to gain anymore weight but oh well, I just eat what I want to eat now. keke...I never did control much to begin with. Anyway, everything is well and baby is kicking. I am glad that God is taking control over the situation.

I have my birth plan ready too. Will be sharing it with you all once everything is over and also have packed my hospital bag ready for admission. Let's hope all goes well. Leaving it to the Lord!

It's the Doc's Appointment again

Today, I will be going for my gynae's appointment. It has been three weeks since the last check up. It is always a wonderful thing to go for the doctor's appointment because this is the only time where KC and I get to see xiao gua. Recently in my head, that's what I think about most. How big has he grown? What does he look like? I am getting anxious for his appearance. I hope he enters into the world soon, but not too soon of course.

Sometimes, I ponder how it would be like when I start to go into labour. Will it be a scary thing? Will I be flabbergasted and go into a frenzy? Or will I be very calm and everything will be under control? Haha...all the funny thoughts just start coming into my head.

Oh and I wrote the birth plan already. I haven't typed it out yet. I think I will do it after I finish writing this entry. And I still have yet to photocopy my IC.

This morning, while in a haste, I forgot to bring my preadmission letter. I hope today, the doc doesn't have much to add. If not, I think I'll get a scolding...haha...

Wonder how life is going to be like when Xiao Gua enters the family. A lot of unanswered questions.

Oh and this morning, I received a sms from my cell mate saying that one of the boys in the cell was vomitting blood. I said a quick prayer for him and I hope all will be well with him. Today, I went to the forum and I came across this lady who lost her child on the 35th weeks and is in total devastation. Indeed it is a very unfortunate event.

Alright, I got to do things now. I have about three hours to get my act together. Let's go see Xiao Gua soon.

Dr's Talk

Today I have to go for my final prenatal class which is a Doctor's talk at SCGS. I am quite excited to find out what they have to say. This week, I will be 35 weeks and nearer to the due date. It has been an interesting journey thus far.

I have many friends counting down with me too. Truly blessed!! And today, I'll be signing the virtual office package. There will be so much changes coming my way soon.

We shall wait for all to settle down before we decide what to do. Hungry now and got to grab a bite. What to eat?

Getting well!!

I took my nebuliser yesterday and boy did that work wonders. I immediately started feeling a bit of relieve. Although I can still smell a fishiness in my breath, but I think the neb helped to loosen the phlegm.

Glad to know that I feel better and am happier lah. Anyway I must concentrate on getting well. That's most important.

Under the weather

Took MC yesterday to rest at home. It was indeed a good rest and today I am feeling horrid again. Starting to sneeze non stop and baby is just kicking non stop. I feel a little tired too. This is not good at all.

Sometimes, I just wonder when all this will come to an end.

Sick and tired

The title above says it all. I am very tired and sick, but I have to be in office if not my colleague would be alone. This is the last week we will be operational.

Nonetheless, I am currently suffering a sorethroat. I feel very very tired and I need a break. My joints are aching due to water retention. The sorethroat was caused by me going to the wake as I am allergic to the incense smoke and thus developed this really bad sorethroat.

Just now I drank my first coconut juice to cleanse my system and to stay healthy. I think it is a good source of minerals.

Nothing much to type since I am so tired. Will write again. I am now going to complete my 34th week this week. :)

Remembering loved ones

Yesterday, I attended the wake of KC's godfather. He recently passed away due to suffering from bone cancer. He wasn't feeling well for months already but glad he managed to attend his son's wedding before he became very dependent.

Thinking of him, I remember he really enjoyed playing mahjong. My MIL would always go their house during the weekend to play a game or two. He was a very close friend to my MIL and also he sent my MIL to the hospital so that KC could be delivered. Indeed, a friend at crucial period.

We stayed till around 11pm and by the time we reached home it was nearly midnight. Today I am extremely tired. Not too sure why. But I feel my tummy growing heavier. Asked KC to weigh me today and found out I had gained 1kg in one week!! Hmm...so that gives me 0.5kg more to gain in the next two weeks. Don't know how I am going to that.

And on my way to work today, we boarded the train where there were no kind souls. Everyone just happily occupied their seats and did not let me sit the entire journey. Now my hands and legs joints are starting to ache due to water retention. It's starting to ache. Don't know how to keep walking when the joints start to hurt. Got to do some research on water retention soon. :)

Also, I need to book my Jamu lady very soon. So much to do in so little time.

Moving out of Orchard Office

This is going to be a sentimental post. It has been a long time since I jotted about work. My work has been diminishing by the days as I lose my zeal in the things that I do. I enjoy what I do, but I am just tired and I need a break.

Today, reality finally settled in. We had interested parties coming to view the office furnitures that we have posted for sale. Soon, we will be transacting and people will be taking the furnitures that once belonged to us.

Our furnitures are really well kept and it is sad to part with them. The many memories we had with the tables we sat on and the deals we closed. The journey has been truly amazing.

Finally, I have to throw in the towel and give up on this business of mine for awhile. We are targetting to really slow down come the end of November and I won't be coming in since I would be full term when it hits the month of December. Then I would be due anytime.

As I embark on a new chapter in life, I close another chapter in life. I would like to thank God and everyone who has helped me through this path.

Before I end this post, I would like share wonderful memories of two important people in my life. First and foremost, it is KC's Godfather. He passed away last evening due to bone cancer. Second person is TL and DL's father, and he died due to brain tumour. I believe both are in a better place and God is with them.

As Xiaogua comes to this world, I guess I have come to realise life is so precious and fragile yet truly amazing. It is amazing how God creates life and takes them away just like that when your time is up. All in God's timing really.

As I near my full term, Xiaogua kicks so much more and gets filled with so much energy. I guess this is a good sign as I know he is very healthy and active. He gives me tons of kungfu kicks in a day and doesn't spare me at night too.

Photos of Pregnant Me

It has been awhile since I last wrote. I am currently coming to the end of my 33 weeks. It has been truly been a journey throughout.

Just came back from the gynae and the feedback was fantastic. Everything is well and healthy and baby is growing well. Currently weights at 1.8kg. He has the size of a 32 weeks baby with the head of a 34 weeks baby....Hmm...wondering does that mean it is going to be harder to push him out?

Doctor mentioned that I am suffering a little water retention already. And I am starting to feel my joints in my knuckles hurt, especially in my left palm. I know KC is starting to count down. Well, Xiaogua is very blessed to have a lot of aunties dote on him. CL has bought things for him already and all the aunties around him are getting very excited. Also, I am having problems finding a perfect name for Xiaogua...It's causing a headache. :) But I guess it is always a good dilemma.

Anyway, throughout my journey, I haven't taken much pictures because I don't look good at all. But after much persuasion from my beloved aunt in the USA, I have obliged to jot down my journey till this far.

This is the front view of me when I was 17 weeks. Pardon the night gown and unkempt hair. Had just come out from the shower.

Here's a side view to show my proud 17 weeks tummy. :) Xiaogua was growing slowly but steadily.

This is a picture of me when I was 18 weeks. Side view with the help of a full length mirror.

And here's the most recent photo taken last night. Look at how much the tummy has grown...What a long way Xiaogua has come. :)

Taiwanese Friend coming to town

My friend recently contacted me to say she was coming to town. I plan to set aside some time for her and bring her around. She was a University friend from ORU. It has been more than 10 years since I last saw her.

Anyway, tonight is also JS's engagement party. Pity I won't be able to attend but I am glad that I'll see her tomorrow for a meal. :) It's interesting how life has changed and people have moved on in their lives. It's really not easy.

Things are going well on my end and I believe baby is all well. I want to remain healthy and happy. I met up with my gfs last night for dinner and boy...was it a great gathering. We will be gathering at HL's house next month. Can't wait!!

Michelle's Coby

Just needed to post some pictures of my friend's new litter. :) He is so cute!!

Putting on the necessary weight

Every night, I will conscientiously go on the weighing scale to check on my weight. From the last gynae visit two weeks ago, my baby doubled in size and I guess my doctor is worried that he will just continue to grow bigger and bigger till I can't do natural birth.

To counteract that problem, I have already switched from nutritional full milk to reduced sugar soya milk and from white bread to wholemeal bread. Other than that, I haven't cut down much and am waiting to see if baby is still doubling when I go to the gynae next. Am rather excited for the next visit happening next week.

My tummy continues to grow bigger and now I suffer from carpus tunnel at night occasionally. I haven't had the time to do exercise which I have told myself I would love to get down to doing some. The only thing I really get down doing is gyrating to release tension on the lower back and pelvic muscles so that the muscles will flex properly to welcome xiao gua into the world.

Today, I also explored putting up a ticker on the website and am so glad that I managed to put it up. As I am typing this, I am experiencing Braxton Hicks. The uterus suddenly tightens but it isn't painful.

Oh and did I mention, as I grow bigger, my rib cage is starting to feel sore and my old problem is coming back to haunt me. Got to remember to highlight it to the gynae and the respiratory doctor when I see them next week.

Starting to feel very tired all of a sudden. The first trimester symptoms are indeed returning. :) Got to go back and sleep earlier tonight again.

Hitched and starting a family

Yesterday, SG sent me a MSN msg delivering the most surprising msg. After which I welcomed her to couplehood with open arms.

Her big day is coming this 17 November 2009. She says she is not the typical bride where she would like a big bash to celebrate and look like the prettiest bride around. All she needs is a good proposal story to remember the event by. She is indeed someone unique and I am happy for her. In fact, I can't wait for her return next year for a holiday.

Whereas right now, I am in the midst of getting prepared to enter into my new phase in life of being a mother. My belly button has finally popped out but it isn't that obvious. Not like some whose belly button is obvious under the clothes.

I believe baby would be happy to know that I am about ready to welcome him into the world. We finally more or less decided on his mandarin name and we are waiting to finalise his English name.

Yesterday, KC and I stayed around to count the strokes of his name and well although the initial part of his life is exactly like KC, but after which he will flourish as his Chinese Name states.

Anyway, work is slowing down little by little and am glad that everything is working out well. Will update on progress.

Are you giving up your seats?

I suddenly felt compelled to write about this today. Every morning when I wake up, and before I head out of my home, I will start to wonder whether I'll get a seat to sit in the MRT today.

When I reach the MRT station and the doors open, I pray that the train wouldn't be so crowded. While I make my way to the seats, where all are taken up, I decide to see which kind soul would give up their seat for me. When I look across the row of seats, sometimes I am just terribly disappointed. People are either sleeping, pretending to be asleep, reading their papers, their books, and some are playing DS or their phones. No one gives up their seat.

Previously, I didn't really mind not being able to sit down, but as my tummy balloons up, I sometimes just really want to take a seat because my lower back really hurts and baby is very active. Sometimes, I am lucky and will meet a few kind souls where they will say to me, I know how it feels and immediately offers their seat. Sometimes I get people give up their seats after a couple of stop because they don't see anyone doing so. I guess people have the mentality "Other people will give up their seats".

Recently, I met up a pregnant lady who gave up her seat for me. Not because she was getting off immediately, but no one else offered to give their seats up and she was getting off in a couple of stops. Sometimes, I feel it is a rather sad thought just to think how selfish people are nowadays.

Also, I have noticed that the sign which used to say priority seating has been changed to reserved seating. It's really quite sad that the authorities have to play around with words and yet no one still gives up their seat for the more needy.

Well, I am fine. Recently, I have been rather lucky in the morning but not after work. I guess I just have to endure a few more months before I can finally see my little one. But this was just a thought. It's really quite sad when its obvious the lady needs a seat.

Is it time to pack the hospital bag?

I am currently in my 29+weeks right now. I haven't taken pictures of my sexy body haha...Well I am proud to say I haven't developed any stretch marks as of today but then again, there is always a chance that it may surface later in the pregnancy.

Been reading other pregnant mother's blogs and understand most people are experiencing the same thing as me. That is, their little one inside them is active and often kicks till it's hard to have a good night's rest. And I thought it was only me. Haha. I guess I shouldn't complain too much.

Anyway at the prenatal class that I attended, they thought us how to talk to our little one and make sure they know who is mummy and papa.

I was also sharing with KC that it may be about time to start packing the bag. Next visit, I will be getting my pre admission letter for the hospital already. We have opted to stay in the one bedder. Hopefully we will get to stay in the new wing. I would love to have both hubby and baby sleep with me if possible and not away from me.

Well as mentioned in my previous entry, I have to prevent cravings from kicking in. Not that I have any. I just feel like I want to munch on something. Haha...

Till the next time...

At 29 weeks

The weekend has just passed and I am back in office a little handicapped without my hard disk. I'll probably need to go home and get it during lunch time.

Anyway, this weekend was rather eventful. I guess it also being the weekend after my darling's birthday. We had a great porridge buffet at quality hotel for his birthday celebration. Though the spread wasn't plenty, but it was tasty and I was glad to have gone there. My dear, also thoroughly enjoyed it.

We bumped into our property agent. He changed tremendously...Had put on tons of weight. He mentioned 20kg. He came over to say hi, but we stared at him for awhile because we couldn't recognise him. What a funny moment!! Haha...later on, I still had to call KW to tell him what happened! And the first person KW guessed I bumped into was his uh hmm...keke....

The following day, both of us went to visit the gynae. I had sugar in my urine again. My gynae nearly wanted to send me for the Gestational Diabetes test again. I was very reluctant considering the fact that I had to fast and have three punctured holes on my arms again. Haha....Then she said, we shall see how the baby is first. And the best thing is, the baby has gained a weight up to 1.5kg+ ...He is huge!! Doctor was stunned and initially was talking about how the ultrasound gives american standards and yada yada....It was an anti climax moment. But when the baby's weight on the screen reflected that he had gained 100% of his weight in one month, my doctor was like " Laura, you need to control your diet if not you may not be able to do a natural birth! She said at most your baby can weight 3.5kg for natural and subsequently, you may have to do C-section."

I told her baby is very active and keeps kicking and she said that's very good. She mentioned that either me or my hubby must have been a big baby. And I told her that's me!! Haha...

Well thank God I don't need to go for another gestational diabetes test but I need to cut down on my sugars and carbohydrates. But I am partially glad that baby has grown to a good size. So now I have to control my weight gain. Will monitor my weight at home too.

Anyway, this weekend, KC had to pack for his army reservist and later on we went for our first prenatal classes with Mrs Wong. She was indeed rather interesting. I had to skip two one month's party because of this weekend's schedule.

We also went for The Hossan Leong's show this weekend. The finale show to be exact. It was much more interesting compared to Singdollar in my opinion. KC and I had tons of fun watching it and subsequently, we reached home relatively late maybe because they extended it due to it being the finale show. They gave out a lot of goodies too...haha...The theatre was filled up to the brim!!

Guess looking back, I did have an eventful weekend! Now it is back to work and later on, I'll head home and back.

One month's

Isn't it always the usual practice that we have to celebrate our newborn's one month? Wonder why there was such a practice to begin with?

I heard from someone that it is because, long time ago, when technology wasn't so advance and health was an issue with babies back then, it was hard to past the first month. And when the baby did survive the first month, it was a time of celebration and rejoice.

Don't know how true this folk tale is but it does make sense considering the hygiene conditions back then. And as centuries past, this tradition has kept on being followed through.

However, for me, I don't think I am very big on one month's celebration for the baby because I think the baby would still be relatively small. I don't mind people seeing the baby, but I don't really like the fact of passing my little one from hands to hands. However, I remember when I went to my friend's one, if the baby was too fragile, out of courtesy, I too never offered to carried the little one. Most importantly, the parents must be comfortable. Sometimes I wonder if I would be overly protective. Haha...

Anyway, a friend of mine gave me the website to share with me to give out during the one month's celebration. I thought that would be lovely.

http://www.sweetestmoments.com.sg/

My Grandfather's 92nd Birthday

My family gathered at Peony Jade Restaurant last evening for a sumptuous meal that we had to da bao some of the food back.

After a very long time, the family actually got together to celebrate my grandfather's birthday. We celebrated his birthday on his actual day. My grandfather is indeed a swell being. He is still driving at his age, playing mahjong, and even reading the papers to keep up to date to current affairs till this day. The best part of it all is he is currently still fiddling with the computer. Haha...Yups that's right. Though he is not an expert, but I guess it is good that he is keeping active nonetheless.

Besides that, I think my family is complicated. We have too much politics and that everyone is sometimes so superficial. Sometimes I think family ties can be so complex. They are woven like a spider web, intricate yet detailed but complex.

Anyhow, only the grandchildren took pictures with the grandparents. Not forgetting xiao gua. Keke...who is of course great grand child. Sok Gong was at the dinner too but haiz...he didn't take a picture with me. Oh well, I guess there will be other opportunities.

Once again, another memorable family gathering.

An irritating matter

This story is getting on my nerve. I am starting to hate eating cordyceps and I swear this is getting on my nerve. The more I think about it the more upset I become. To be honest, I don't think I have done anything to deserve such treatment and all these reproachment.

I hate it when I am accused of things. This is definitely not fair at all. Everytime I drink a bowl of cordyceps nowadays, I tend to feel irritated. I don enjoy one bit of it. Don't enjoy it at all. And I feel sometimes I have had enough.

Right now I feel like I can strangle someone. Can't people just leave me alone? ARGHHHH

Family feuds

As the title mentions...How often do we have such problems really? But it is quite apparent in most families nowadays with the complexities in life. There are also politics being played out even within your closest others.

Why is there a need to have family feuds sometimes I wonder? Is it to protect your closest people to you? Or is it for personal interest?

For me personally, I don't really enjoy family feuds and I guess I am pretty easy going. I don't know if any of my friends are willing to vouch for me on that. Anyway, recently there has been turmoil within the family with regards to a particular person.

Yeah and I am not too sure when this will be resolved. But I feel this person has crossed several lines to where she is at and it is definitely not doing her any good. Oh well, we shall see how the entire things play out.

But I feel there will be a closure very soon. :)

A fall!!

Guess it was an unfortunate incident and the title says it all. My dear suffered bad abrasions yesterday while taking his last IPPT. Both of his knees apparently gave way while he was doing his shuttle run. There was friction on the floor and there went the skin on his knees. Despite it being surface injuries, it was still a very bad fall. He went to Gleneagles to get his wounds dressed before returning home for dinner.

Got me worried for awhile. Yesterday, I was also suffering from back pain. I told KC, now both of us can't bend down to do stuff just because he didn't take good care of himself. :) Well, hope he recovers well. He is now resting at home.

Talking about rest, today is one of the consultants last day. KW has been with me for 4 years now. One of the longest standing consultants and he has finally decided to take a step out of this particular industry. I wonder when it will be my turn and when it is ever my turn, what's going to happen? A lot of uncertainties for sure.

Well we will take a step at a time. Today's calender reminders mentions that there is no trials and tribulations beyond what we can bear if we share them with our Father as we talk to Him in prayer. John 16.33 I have said this to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulations but be of good cheer. I have overcome the world.

Dearie's Birthday coming up soon

Now the birthday season is here. My grandpa, D's and KC's birthday is coming really soon. I am still clueless of what is to be done on all their special day!!

It's tough every year we have to discover new things but I guess it is good when we do discover new things, it makes life more interesting. We mark the end of an old chapter and open a new chapter, there are many unexpected things that will be occurring. I guess we just have to take a step at a time really.

Tomorrow also marks the last day of K's tenure with us. It has been a long time and you know what, just before he leaves we had a big ordeal...I don't know what happened. But glad things are back to normal or can they ever be?

Well I think it has been a long day and I wanted to type earlier but it has been relatively busy. Got to work hard till we close up the old chapter. May we continue to have the blessings of the Father above!!

A day at work!!

As I enter into the third trimester of my pregnancy, I am starting to feel the stress on my body. It's been really tough on me and my body.

This week alone, everyone has been falling ill and I am not sure why. I try to think positive and not let negative thoughts enter my head so easily. Life has been truly trying and thinking positive sometimes can be quite tough. But I know by God's grace it is definitely possible.

Recently, I have also been experiencing Braxton Hicks pretty often. The tightening of the uterus is quite frequent. But after I walk and rush to the toilet to pee, I guess it becomes better.

I can't wait to see how big the baby has grown. I am really looking forward to the next scan.

Another quiet day!!

Hi there journal, it's the 27th week and baby is kicking non stop. I think baby is very contented as I just had my lunch. I ate junk food today because I was just too tired to think of what to eat and I wanted something quick and easy.

In any case, today, M and A aren't around in office. Only K is in office with me. It's been rather quiet. I guess for the next month, it may be this way? Who knows? I do hope not because I would like to at least maintain our standing now.

Well, I have been keeping updated with news on the arrival of the little one. I can't wait to start my prenatal classes where I will get a massage by my own hubby. Nonetheless, I am very full. Am glad that all is well now in office. We will have to take the case to a next level when it comes down to the stupid girl. Haha...

Alright back to work...Got to finish what I have set out to do.

2nd Year Wedding Anniversary

How boring can a couple get? Keke...Yeah you are right...Yesterday marked the day where we celebrated our wedding anniversary but no pictures were taken. And I told my hubby there goes my dream of putting together a collage with our pictures taken every year.

I was telling my dear, we should just get a photo album to indicate events in our lives where we have speacial meals and we eat them so that we won't have to start wrecking our brains recollecting those memories.

But before we start our little scrap book on our family soon. Here's to mention we went to Gyu Kaku Japanese BBQ at Chijmes for a romantic dinner.

http://www.gyu-kaku.com.sg/

In any case, life has been great throughtout our marriage lives so far. I have had a fantastic journey and am truly bless to have a dear who love me for who I am. Cannot imagine how can anyone put up with my nonsense for so long. And now, we are going to start a family.

This Christmas would be most exciting as we will be celebrating the festives not as a couple but as a family. :) I am elated and excited by this.

Anyway, now marks the time where I have to plan for my dearie's birthday. It's coming up soon...Can't wait really. Another good meal to look forward to as well. I'll be starting the wash of the baby's clothes soon too!!

We will also be buying the basket for the baby as well. Wonder if that is really necessary though. May talk to my hubby abt that again. :)

Another year has passed!! 2nd Year Wedding Anniversay...

That's right!! Everything is on schedule. Before I married my husband, I told him I had a time frame. 26 to marry, 28 to have our first child and 30 to have our second and that will be all.

So far, we are on track!!! I am having my first child in December and God has blessed us with a Christmas Baby. I have this very strong instinct that my little one will be a prodigy. I guess that's what all mothers hope for. But most importantly, I pray he will grow up to be a man of God!!!

Due to religion difference, my husband and I have come to a consensus that we will let our children pick their own religion. Most importantly, we are all happy and have a roof over our head. I would love for them to learn to appreciate the little things in life though they will be born in a blessed family.

I guess our little baby is the best present for our anniversary this year. Though I guess we will still have a good meal. Haha...

In preparation for the arrival of my little prince, we have been shopping and spending non-stop these past few weeks. Recently, we bought the drawers for the nappy for the baby from NTUC.

Similar to the one above but only thing is mine is transparent. Then today, there is this private Isetan Sale for Cardmembers, I bought my scanpan wok, two balmain countour pillows with silica gel, a bolster and bedsheet. The best part is, I also bought the romekins set to make the creme brulee at such a huge discount.

Been spending quite a bit. Should stop shopping to start saving up. Anyway, we are attending Mrs Wong's prenatal classes pretty soon. Hopefully that will keep me pretty occupied.

Looking forward to the day the little one is going to be a part of the family physically. Till then, please keep praying!!!

Things bought for baby at Taka Fair

We bought several things from Taka Fair. Here are some of the things to share. Above is the car seat we decided to buy after much consideration. We thought it was a very versatile seat with a good and sturdy body. It was very comfortable too.

This will also be the first cot that baby will be sitting on. It was a sale and we got a husk filled mattress that was apparently good for the baby's back. It also had teething protection to protect the wood and came with a dangling toy above which we thought would be good to distract baby.

We also thought this would be useful. So we bought this comfortable snuggle nest so that baby can cuddle between the both of us. I hope he would feel comfortable and secure in it. Keke...

The last big ticket item we bought was this combi stroller. What I liked about this stroller was that I had the choice of facing the baby when I pushed the stroller or I could also push the stroller from behind. And the stroller seemed very comfortable. The best part is the colour is very unisex.

Besides all the above, we also did purchase other stuff like softeners, cotton, some toys, baby tub and diaper liners from the taka fair. In total we went there twice to finish our purchases. We were very happy to have gone and thought we made fantastic buys.

I hope baby will be happy with these and would find it comfortable. Now I still have to buy a bassinet before most of the things are purchased.

A roller coaster ride

I disappeared for several weeks and I guess it's about time to update how's life. The title describes it all. It has been a roller coaster ride. Company was in a mess as I was once again disappointed by one of the staff.

I guess it is time to let go and look for greener pastures if there is any out there. I was also warded in the hospital for 4 days due to an asthma attack. The doctor refused to release me and I had to even request for hom leave due to the mess in the company. I have never been so stress before and considering the fact that I had the little one in me, it really made matters a lot of worst.

Subsequently, I went on to rest at home and I found spotting on my panties. It was scary and my gynae talked about placenta seperation. It wasn't fun at all. Anyway went for gynae check up, gynae wanted to give me another MC but I was already covered by my respiratory doctor.

Today, I am back in the office for the very first time, but I am on half day. :) I guess it's about time I relaxed a little and took the ride a lot slower. I hope we can end this all well so I can really take a break to rest. I am so tired from all this running around.

Every day, I pray for a healthy little one and God's hands are upon him. I have received many wonderful news...My primary school friend just delivered a little one and my cell mate's wife just delivered to a little gal too. And I found out my HK friend too just delivered!! All at one time really! It's fantastic news really.

Hopefully all will be smooth for me too. :) God I entrust my life to you!

21st week and counting...Saying Hi to little one tomorrow

Wow...time has really flown by and now I am half way through my pregnancy. Finally, I can officially say I am half way through. My good friend is going to pop anytime soon and she can't wait. Wonder what it would be like to be in her shoes. Guess my time will come duely.

I am starting to recover slowly from my cough. Am on 9 medications and the doc nearly wanted to ward me into the hospital yesterday. Luckily I managed to wiggle my way out of that if not I would be lying in the hospital bed now.

Dr Tan called me this morning to check on me. I didn't tell him I was at work. Afraid he would scold me. Because I am still very sick. But I have no choice. There is a shortage of manpower. :( I am starting to feel I have a lack of support in the office and it is very very difficult to run the office by myself. My chest feels tight occasionally and I am definitely not in the best of shape to taking on work matters. But work beckons me so I have no choice I suppose. I pray that God will still protect the little one and keep him safe from my germs and synthetic medications.

I so strongly believe that God has plans for my little one. He will be a smart and intelligent boy. Sensible too I strongly feel. Because his parents make very informed decisions so I am sure he will turn out to be very very capable. That's my hope for him. And I won't settle for anything less.

Tomorrow, I will be spending the entire day in the hospital. At 9am, I have the detailed scan to perform, following that, I have to visit the gynae and the respiratory doctor altogether. I hope the two doctors will have mercy on me. Haha...

Very happy to be able to work as a normal person again and not be confined to those four walls. It is indeed very boring at home. :( Haha....I don't know how I am going to survive staying at home really. Hopefully the baby can keep me very occupied...

Alright...going to finish up what I need to do. Will document again soon.

Happy National Day Singapore!! I am sick though...

The long weekend has just passed. It was suppose to be a relaxing one but oh well, my maid came to our household this week so I had to train her a little. But before I could get down to the hardwork, I ran out of breath. :( So my dear husband had to take over most of the job. It wasn't easy really. Thumbs up to him...He is really such a sweetheart and he always readily takes on the tasks metted out. He is really my knight and shining armour.

Anyway, for two days, we taught and trained her and for two days we stayed out real late because of gatherings we had with family and friends. It was a great time of catching up. Saturday we went to my Aunt's house and boy was the spread splendid. It has been a long time since I saw my grandparents and of course they were still the same playing mj...haha...Nothing beats my granny's recipes...And the wonderful desserts that my Aunt had in her house...Oh and not to mention the lovely durians...Haha....

Then on Sunday, besides the countdown to Singapore's birthday bash, we celebrated AH's birthday at a very very quaint Japanese Restaurant in Mirama Hotel. It was a great party with AH's good friends and family. We took a lot of pictures and ate a lot of good food because the parents knew the owner of the restaurant. And yeah...the spread again was excellent.

Both days, my maid slept in the car while on the way home. We dropped her off at my dear's god parent's place. And picked her up with my mother in law after our gathering. So far, there has only been great feedback of the maid. I hope she is really someone great!! I don't mind spoiling her actually...but I just want her to do her job well that's all. It's wonderful to have her around that everyone likes her.

However, yesterday, I caught the bug. I had a bad sorethroat and drank coke with salt to nurse the throat. Eventually it disappeared this morning, but it went down to the lungs and later which now caused me to be a bit breathless. Yups, having another attack and was given a week's MC again. I seriously don't know how my health is going to take this. I told my dear there is no way I can take on the task any longer in running the operations well.

He understands I suppose and I am glad. May the Lord guide our steps. For now, my most important prayer is to keep the baby healthy and strong. I guess if I the mother has to suffer a bit, that's fine.

Chest Pains!!

I realied that carry a baby is simple the toughest job ever in the world. No wonder mothers are the most important people in most children's lives. Haha...

What a friend mentioned to me this morning is so true. Having a baby is like training you to become a warrior. To fight a very tough battle ahead.

I am not doing too well healthwise. I can sit at my desk and breathe real hard and my heart can pound at my chest just by not doing anything. It's not easy and I guess the sacrifice mother's make is very hard.

Although I don't want to depend on my hubby, it seems that I may need to very soon...We shall see where the Lord guides then.

Nige's Wedding...and into 5th month soon

It's a monday and I am typing away because it's going to be lunch. Think I'll do a quick one. I have been enjoying Mac Donald's very much because KC seems to like their shaker fries now that they are having that promotion. I believe it happens annually.

This past weekend it was a hectic weekend. However, very very cool. We did many things. Starting Saturday, we went to the doctor's and later went for the church wedding of N and C. I am so happy for N as I was hoping he would tie the knot soon. He so wanted to tie the knot at the age of 25 and he is late by three years. But I guess that's good enough. Candor speeches enchanted the audiences given by the Pastor and N himself. There were many people there but I missed a few too.

Later which we came home to rest a little while and did the housework. Afterwhich, I went to Paragon to buy my E52. I am so happy with my new phone. But I haven't had the time to transfer the data from the old phone to the new phone. Got to do that soon.

Sunday, we woke up later and went to catch the Sing Dollar play. Later which I attended the wedding dinner. It was fantastic...N and C did the tango and they were apparently very nervous about that. Met up with some old friends and had a great chat!!

Oh and I forgot to mention, we bought a collection of CDs which I thought was absolutely lovely. And let's see...every time I sit down for a Neb...I feel the little one kicking. I can't wait for the day I get to see the little being again. My maid is arriving this weekend...It's going to be busy busy!!

Breathing is tough

Hi I am back!! I will be 18 weeks come tomorrow. It has been tiring carrying my little one in my tummy.

I don't remember if I mentioned but last weekend I got a call from my doctor when I was having my Macs that my haemoglobin was at abnormal levels and that I am anaemic. I would like to believe that I am mildly anaemic because she didn't ask me to come in to collect extra iron supplements. She just told me to have my liver three times a week and try to eat red dates.

Oh well, I just found out that my friend was also anaemic. So I guess it is true that it is a normal thing for us Pregnant mummies to be anaemic. However, this past week I have been having a hard time breathing. My chest has been very tight and I have problem even doing staircases. It's no joke. I am really not too sure how this anaemic condition and asthmatic condition I have is affecting my health.

I know the Lord is very kind to me and I am grateful. God has been good and I would love to exalt His name. I know He will bless me with the best child in the world like what most parents hope for!!

In any case, I think it should be time I go seek medical treatment. No choice since I am suffering so badly. I hope not be warded but I am not sure how this is affecting my health. And I have to take care of my friends coming in from Korea!! So much things to do with so little energy. How I wish life was much simpler.

Anyway just a side note, my friend NC is getting married to his beloved in two weeks. And I have to attend a musical on his wedding dinner date!! Oh wells...hopefully I'll be up to it for the event!

P.S. No one offered me a seat today!! Haha...

A quiet day at office

It's just me in office today because one of my colleagues went for an interview and the other two are on leave. I am not doing much here myself because I don't want to stress myself up and I am trying not to call anyone in case I have to pick up the phone.

These few days haven't been simple. I have been breathing badly and I the best part is, I can't go see the doctor because I can't leave people around in office alone. I don't know how my colleague has the heart to do this to me but I have come to terms that everyone in this world is selfish.

Everyone just cares about themselves and no one really bothers about each other unless absolutely necessary. But I have been counting my blessings. People still give up seats for me and I am thankful.

As we prepare for the little one, there are going to be a lot of changes I am sure. Need to hang in there to make sure we are all supporting one another. I love my dear tremendously. I hope that the days ahead will be a lot quieter for me so that I can find rest.

Weary

Running a company is no joke. I grow tired very easily and I just need to rest. I try to not think about work when I reach home.

Sometimes I find it marvellous that some people can detach themselves from their work when they reach their homes. I find it to be a challenge and it seems difficult to not reflect on the day's happening.

And not only that, I have a little one growing in me. I hope all my complex thoughts do not transcend to him. I try not to think so that I won't grow a strand of white hair and I don want to worry about anything else but my growing family.

I don't know how people with four children can don work and just wait around for a job. I find it difficult. The road has been challenging but God has been gracious. I hear about how D has so much on her plate at Cell group and yet she still serves the Lord. What are my problems compared to her's?

Guess I am just feeling melancholic nowadays. But yeah, I can still count my blessings. I have a lovely husband and a beautiful family and not much to worry about a roof over my head and food on my plate. I should learn to be contented.

The guessing game is over....

Hi there....I collected guesses from close friends and majority guessed the gender of the baby correctly.

Yesterday, I went to the doctor's to confirm the gender of the baby. We waited for nearly 3 hours because I was early. Outside of the doctor's room...I kept turning to KC to ask him...so what do you think...boy or gal...boy or gal...and obviously he sort of guessed the correct answer too...keke...

Anyway some were disappointed but most were happy because a lot of my family members were hoping for their correct guesses...haha...But before I reveal the results of the check up...let me add to say that before I had gone to the gynae, I had gone to see the respiratory doctor. My respiratory doctor said I was still tight in the chest area and prescribed me a nasal spray.

Today, I have been feeling very very tired. I am not too sure why. But I am so tired that I suffered from a headache again and decided to eat a couple of paracetamol pills. Thank God that helped relieved my pain but I am still feeling very very weary.

I told KC I needed to go home and just nap it out later. Really tired from the work and I guess just not up to it. Not feeling too good and I can feel when I am tired...my lungs are tightened again.

Anyway, just wanted to keep anyone from reading my blog in suspense....So the verdict is...The baby is a ....(Drum rolls please)...Its a boy!!!

Thank God for a healthy baby...May the baby be smart, healthy and fillial. Most importantly, must be successful next time and have a good heart!

Officially 16 weeks old

Baby is officially 16 weeks old in the tummy from the day of baby's conception. Every day as I feel my tummy, I can't help but think how little baby will change our lives.

I have had got mixed reviews from experienced parents. I just spoke to J yesterday and he mentioned that life revolved only around his little one and nothing else. He sounded miserable and he said that he only wanted to have one if not he wouldn't have a life!

Then I have my beloved friend who just migrated to Aussie telling me that the end result is always the most joyous thing. With the addition of Baby E...Their family has a stronger bond and both couple have learnt to appreciate each other more.

Hmm...I guess I would only know when baby shows up in my arms...However, what I feel now is, the misery of the pregnancy is just pure torture. I don't feel myself...I feel all messed up inside with occasional pukish feeling and followed by persistent headaches.

Thank God today has been pretty ok with mild headaches and no sense of puking. I have so far managed to keep my food in. My intake has increased a little which I guess it a good thing. I hope I am able to shed whatever excess when baby finally shows up.

For now, I just thank God every day of my life as He reminds me with Joshua 10:25 Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Be strong and courageous.

May this verse bless the many out there who is feeling discouraged at this moment!

Counting down to another week

Amazingly, it's going to be another month and I'll get to see the little one on the screen again!! Yes yes...one more week and we get to feast our eyes on the progress that our little one has made. This day would also be the day we confirm the gender of the little one.

KC is very excited!! He keeps saying he can't waitsand I just love the joy that shows on his face. I am excited too...But am just so worn that these days I get a bit expressionless.

Over the weekend, I gave my hands a good exercise. They are aching all over because I played Wii for hours over. It was a crazy time of fun and family time. The best part is we managed to clear the hurdle of the run of ravind rabbids.

We just had so much fun and family time. Anyway I forgot to add in an entry on roti prata...Yups, the day I had roti prata for lunch, I became a waterfall. Its no joke!!! I realised I am so sensitive to milk, curry and whatever that has diary products.

Today I am trying soya bean and I don't already feel well. I hope I won't puke again. I used to wish I could puke so that I feel better but I realised this puking sensation doesn't really take away the pain or the uncomfortable feeling.

Anyway...back to work. Have tons to clear....Will write again.

The weekend is over

Let's see where should I begin. Last week, I was on a puking streak. I puked every day of the week and on Friday I peaked by puking three times in a day.

So I decided to give it a shot by not drinking milk in the morning and still eat my supplements as usual. Lo and behold...I stopped puking for the entire weekend!! I suspect it is the milk that is causing my stomach to overturn.

Over the weekend, I went to KC's God brother's wedding dinner. It was a small affair but truly heartwarming to finally see them tie the knot. KC's God Father was probably the happiest man alive that night. KC's God Mother was absolutely stunning too. And the grandchildren were really adorable.

And on Sunday, KC and I went to Mothercare to shop. We bought a lot of clothes for the little one to accumulate enough so that we can get the membership to Mothercare for the bigger items in the future if there was a need to buy anything from Mothercare. Besides, a lot of the clothes were going on 50% sale.

KC was so excited. How I wish I could have captured his joy buying the clothes. He was so excited that he had to bring it up to show his mum the clothes. I am so happy sometimes to see him this way. Brings a lot of joy to my heart.

Anyway, I guess after the next visit to the doctor's, we will be going on shopping sprees for quite a bit. KC would like to know the gender before buying anything. Can't wait for the next visit to the gynae.

First time feeling so much better!

So as I was saying about my daily affair of puke. Spaing everyone the details. I am feeling much better today for the very first time!! Woo hoo...I suspect it is the calcium pills that I have been eating. I'll do a trial and error for today and tomorrow to see if it is the case.

Going to try and eat the multivitamins now. Yummy. I have a swollen lymph node!! Yes yes...doc says I am heaty thus the inflammation. Maybe I shouldn't abstain from so much of these things that are supposedly healthy.

Well, I think the doctor makes a lot of sense. Eat everything in a variety. Nothing will go wrong that way. As long you don't eat the same things excessively...there shouldn't be a problem.

Anyway had a great lunch today!! Finished the bowl of Mee Hoon Kuey and it was absolutely delicious. Yups....And I am feeling good after the lunch too.

Tonight meeting the gals for a catch up!! Can't wait!! We are going to be expanding the group to 5 people. Haha...its growing...yes it is!!

It is a daily affair

As the title says it all...It's been a daily affair. I puke every day without fail whether I puke tons out or just saliva.

Been feeling horrible recently and of course the splitting headache. Last night I puked out a bit of volume and I am just wondering if I hurt my lymph node. It's a bit swollen and pain. Will wait and see if it disappears.

I don't sleep well at night and I feel utterly miserable. I think I should take a rest soon or maybe throw in the towel? I feel miserable. One is enough....

The day I first vomitted!!!

It's been awhile since I last updated as I have been under the weather for a long time. So there's a lot to update.

Over the weekend, KC and I were excited about our gynae visit the coming Monday. However, we were kept busy and we got the most excellent buy at Chinatown for Stretch Mark cream...What a discount!! We were glad we went....Then we got our new car too...Although it is a weekend car, it is very comfortable and I enjoyed all the rides we had in it!! It can play all my VCDs and I get to listen to nice songs...What more can I ask for?

Anyway, monday came and I asked for a transfer of respiratory doctor. Later on in which I went on to office to work for awhile. So here comes the real update of the little one:

15 June 2009

We were at the gynae's office on time. However as I couldn't hold my urine, I went to the ladies later to find out I had to do a dip stick test. The nurse gave me 2 glasses of water but I still did not have the urge yet.

It was my turn to go into the room for a scan. It was so fun to see the little one again. The doctor said the baby was expressionful. The baby waved at us and the doctor caught it. However, the baby did not cooperate as the doctor needed the baby to lie down rather than stand and the baby was standing in a studying posture. The doctor took two pictures and kept the third one for herself. :)

Later which, she asked me to go out and fill up my bladder and walk around for 10 mins and she will see me again. She said the baby's neck fold needed to be less than 3mm for it to be a low risk baby. And Thank God!! The measurement taken after the 10 mins of walking around was 1.1mm...Excellent. Now the doctor said we had to find the nose bridge of the baby. We found it within a sec. Another excellent news! So the doc said all is well.

Now her guess is the baby is a boy...I was like this is confusing. She said it was a gal on the 10th week and now she says the baby is a boy. Nonetheless, both are good. She said she would confirm the gender on the 16th week...Can't wait!!

The baby seems to be very active. Likes to stand rather than lie down. Interesting huh?

Anyway, I was suffering a bit of headache when I was at the doc's office and I told her. She asked if I had a history of migraine and I said not at all. And she left it at there. When night fell, I was feeling very uncomfortable. My head was throbbing and I was feeling very uncomfortable. Later to my amazement, I vomitted out the jelly I ate after dinner!!

Straight away I felt even more miserable. Why was this happening to me? I was suppose to be feeling better since I had passed the first three months. Apparently not so!! I ended up going to be early hoping that my headache would disappear.

16 June 2009
I woke up from my sleep....My head was still throbbing and I wasn't feeling too well...But I knew I had to drag myself out of bed because my colleague was going to be on MC. I went all the way to Dhoby Gaut and I knew I couldn't push myself anymore. While walking to the doc's I actually vomitted again!! The feeling was horrible! I actually puked on my hand!! The smell was horrendous. Anyway, I went back half a day later!! I am not doing so well now that I am in second trimester. Can only hope for God to continue blessing me throughout!

Now it is the 17th of June 2009. So far so good. Had Char Siew Fan for lunch and it was yummy....Can't wait for dinner!! I think I am going to have Kuey Chap!!

Pukish again?

Haiz...another day of feeling miserable. I don't feel well with a lot of gas in my system. I have been burping this morning and eating a couple of sour plums but I still feel miserable. I am starting to feel that sour plums are losing its effect on me.

I wonder what's the next best thing to calm me down. I hope that I am able to recover from all these queasiness.

In any case, I am starting to talk to a friend from the USA. He and I used to be rather close and he is telling me he wants to start a new venture. However, I don't seem to catch what he is trying to say or maybe he hasn't mentioned what his venture is about. In any case, maybe after a few conversation with him, I'll be able to understand.

But its good to know that he has stepped out of his comfort zone and wanting to help the less fortunate. God has truly placed strategic people around the globe to help people in need I feel.

Anyways, now I have run out of people to look for. I really need to find bankers but I can't seem to find them. I wonder where they are hiding right now? Tonight, my family is gathering for a small celebration with my brother since his birthday is coming up. I can't wait for tonight!

Yes yes...TGIF tomorrow.:)

The 10 things....

I just had lunch and my colleagues gave me a brilliant idea to blog about the 10 things I hate about being pregnant and the 10 things I like about being pregnant...Let's see if I can come up with the list:

The 10 things I hate about being Pregnant:
1. I gain weight overall and my face takes an odd shape
2. The many things I have to restrain from eating which are actually my favourite
3. The Nausea feeling that always haunts me throughout the day
4. The backaches that haunt me on and off
5. The number of times I have to wake up from my sleep to visit the ladies and my sleep gets disrupted
6. The puffs I have to remember to take every day
7. The amount of money I have to spend on stretch mark creams
8. The loss of appettite and how fussy I have become
9. I can't seem to stomach my bird's nest that my grandma has made for me
10. The many superstitions that I have to follow due to me being pregnant

The 10 things I like about being Pregnant:
1. I don't have to carry heavy things...there would always be people offering to help me out
2. I don't have to bend down and take things as there will always be people helping me to do so
3. The bulging tummy with the little one growing, I enjoy the feeling of rubbing that little bulge
4. The attention I get and always being given way to
5. The joy of thinking of the little one growing in me and how marvellous God's creation is
6. Wonder how the child will look like
7. The shopping I get to do with retrospect to the baby
8. The little talks I have with my hubby about the little one
9. How my hubby and I talk to the little one
10. The joy surrounding me in regards to the little one

I guess this list may change as time goes by...So follow on to be kept updated!!

Over the weekend!

It was a fulfilling but tiring weekend. I think this upcoming one, I will be resting and relaxing...Friday night, I went out with one of my primary school friends. I haven't seen my this friend for I think nearly 15 years. She definitely has lost a lot of weight. It was a great time catching up with her and it was wonderful just going through her entire life and what has been happening to her and her entire family.

Then the next morning, we went to the maid agency to understand the procedure of what we need to do to hire a maid. Further which we short listed a couple of maids but they were eventually not available for hire. Haha....What luck right? Oh well, the good thing is we aren't in a hurry to hire one anyway. We later had lunch at Bedok and went off.

When I returned home. I couldn't help but just take an afternoon nap. I couldn't control myself. My hubby commented that recently, I always need to take afternoon naps...It seems like I don't have the stamina to stay awake for the entire day. It is like I have some kind of spasm. Well I guess it is tiring growing the little one inside me.

After a good 2 hours nap, I woke up and did the house chores. Later which my hubby went for his jog and we gathered with a friend for dinner. It was a good time of catching up and subsequently, we adjourned at our place for a casual chat. We ended the evening at 2am which by that time, I was drained of all my energy.

Next morning, I woke up without much problems. Had a good hearty breakfast at Mac's and headed for church. It was a great time of service. It always feels good being reminded of how gracious and good our Lord is.

Later on, KC and I went on to Paramount to meet another group of friends for dim sum lunch. Again it was an informative chat as one of our friends is currently doing anaesthetic for delivering mothers. It was interesting to know that GA actually increases the risk for both mother and child.

After lunch, we went our seperate ways...KC and I came back to my office to collect some things but I ended up being stuck in the ladies for half an hour. Yups...I was suffering from constipation. It is time for fruits galore...:) Maybe we should eat some strawberries tonight? :)

At night, we went back to the in laws for a simple dinner. Instant noodles with vegetables and eggs. That I guess was tasty enough but not filling. But boy was I tired. However, I had to finish the drama and later on, we even went on to watch Taken by Liam Neeson. That show was a splendid show. Both of us haven't watched movies for a long time. It was great just lazing around together catching a movie. But I was so dead tired after that. The consequence of going against my own desire of rest.

Today is another horrible day of horrible lunch and horrible feeling. I have come to a conclusion. I absolutely love pregnancy except the part where I have to feel uncomfortable every second of the day!

Into my 11th week

I am cruising into the 11th week. Not feeling better every day. Nauseousness still looms around me on and off. I don't have the best of appettite but I still can consume my daily meals.

Starting to feel like an old hag, I suffer from lower back pains and last night, my legs began to feel a little sore. I wonder if I'll have bad water retention. Trying hard to massage the legs by myself just to make sure I don't suffer from too much water retention.

My hubby is busy today pitching deals. I hope he does well and God is with him. My cell group is not meeting again this week. They have yet to sms me.

Anyway, before we go for our gynae visit, we have decided to go by the maid agency to see what's the normal procedure to book a fantastic maid so that the maid can help me with the chores. I really need to get some help once the little one comes out of the womb.

Besides that, will be catching up with some old friends this week which I look forward to very much. I haven't seen this friend since Primary School.

Well I can feel the tummy growing. Hopefully it won't grow too big. I really want to get my figure back when I deliver the little one.

As mentioned in my previous entry, I am supposed to see two doctors. One respiratory and another the gynae. To me, it doesn't make sense I run to Mt Alvernia and then to Glen E. If the respiratory one needs to be seen throughout my pregnancy, I have decided to switch to a respiratory doctor in Glen E to consolidate all the docs in one hospital. Think that makes more sense.

Shall do that during the next visit.

Third Visit to the Gynae

We arrived early at the gynae. It was 1.45pm and they weren't open yet. We waited for awhile. I went to the toilet and waited patiently for the clinic to open.

The Doc came in abt 2.15pm. It was immediately my turn although the couple who's appointment at 2pm was waiting. Reason was because they came late anyway and for ours, we arrived early.

So the doc did and ultrasound scan and the baby is about 3cm long!! The baby was kicking in the air and appeared to be cycling. Doctor suspects it to be a gal but it is actually too early to tell. She said she really couldn't tell but was only guessing. She said she may know come 12 weeks which I will be returning to her again for a nuchal translucency test to see the risk of down syndrome.

It was fun seeing the little one kick inside the little tummy. The baby was like cycling on open air. It was fun. I can't wait to see the doc again in two weeks time. Like always...the baby is so near and yet so far....:)

Today is the third visit to the gynae

Today, I am officially 10 weeks and 3 days. Dear has taken half day to go with me to the docs and see our little one who is so near us but yet so far...:)

Recently, I haven't been feeling so well with regards to nauseousness...I get chest pains and wheezing rather frequent. I need to reflect this to the doc.

Overall, I guess there's a lot of updates this particular month. But I did buy a ton of maternity wear which I am wearing today.

I am so excited to meet up with the doc. Can't wait!! Will update again.

The weekend is here!!

The weekend is finally here...And I am officially in my 10th week today!! Next week Monday, I will head to the gynae's office for a check up and a look at my little one...Yups...I will tell her of the many symptoms I have experienced over the past few weeks. Stinging eyes, lower left abdominal pain, pukish, lower back pain, hard of breathing and sometimes occasional wheezing...

It's terrible and I am glad this is all over. Ok I need to breathe...I have got an interview later. :)

Reviewed past emails

Today has been an exciting day for me at work. Received a lot of relevant documents for the projects that I have on hand. I just need a couple more relevant ones for the other projects I have on hand and that would be all.

Anyway, just wanted to highlight my condition today. I am feeling a little tired today. But overall, everything is well and I don't feel as pukish as I believe yesterday. I can't wait for the doc's appointment this Monday as I have a lot to share. I had experience lower abdominal pains on the left side majority of the evening.

And last night, my MIL came to stay with me and we had a good time just sitting around watching TV. I think TV will keep me really busy. Been watching the news lately...H1N1 has been introduced to Singapore but there's nothing to be alarmed about I suppose. I guess the bigger news was the lost of Man U to Barcelona last night....My colleague is kind of down recently.

Yesterday, I was looking through some old emails and I came upon my dear's email to me. At that point of time we were only dating for a month. And boy was that one of the sweetest email I have read so far.

It's nice keeping a journal remembering the past though the past is always the past and we have to learn to move on.

I look forward to a better future...How people say you would be a happy three! I wonder what it would be like having a little one in the family.

Misery

It is horrible just suffering since the 8th week with regards to morning sickness. It isn't fun at all...Yesterday evening, I suffered from terrible morning sickness as usual and I didn't know how to handle it. Had to lie down for awhile before I could budge and eat dinner...

It's really bad feeling this way...It's not fun at all...I don't know how people can remain positive after conceiving and going through bouts of puking...I don't find it fun at all...I am so tired every day and I don't feel well every day...It's annoying...

Well, the gynae appoinment is less than one week away....Can't wait for everything to pass...Really can't wait...

Happy Birthday to me!!

I am a day late from my actual birthday....But that's ok...This is my first birthday with my little one inside...It is interesting as I don't really enjoy the food that I eat, yet I love the attention I get from everyone...haha...

My birthday celebration started on Saturday when I met up with my secondary school classmate at his wedding dinner. He finally tied the knot with his other half he had so long waited for. Hope he will be forever happy. There I took away two lovely pictures of me and KC. And I truly enjoyed the dinner. My friend's birthday was the following day and I bet it must have been his most memorable birthday ever!!

Later which, I spent Sunday celebrating with my family...It was truly a nice time just meeting up with my family. Dad treated us to a wonderful dinner at Red Star Restaurant. I had a filling meal and received ang baos, diamond ring from my mum and my brother a mixer, his gf a dress and following that...A very very nice cake from Bakerzinn....

On Monday, I took off which later I spent at home just lazing around and enjoying the time with my dear. We had wanton noodles and a fantastic dinner at Keppel Club!! We had Peranakan at this restaurant called Permakan. The people there were dressed for the occasion I bet but I just enjoyed the food...and I bet I would have loved it more if not for my funny feeling inside me.

Following which today, I am back in office and my company bought a lovely cake for me...And we just blew it in office...Now waiting for the cake to defrost!!

Officially in my 9th week now

Wow...I find it difficult to count the days...But then I don't know why I bother too...Maybe in a way I am really getting excited about this kid.

Well, I am not feeling as bad as before. Not much morning sickness however, I still burp a lot. Everytime I see my MIL's steam fish, I feel like burping. I don't know why I don't like her steam fish...I used to be able to eat everything and anything...I am starting to get a little picky I supposed.

I attended cell yesterday and my cell members are very kind. My cell leader packed a bunch of her maternity wear for me...She is indeed sweet wanting to share her stuff with me. But KC was making noise that he hasn't bought me anything and I was getting stuff from people already. :)

My thoughts are to save him a bunch of money, but he has got weird thinkings as well. He prefers to spend a bunch of money and complain later. Sometimes, I can't understand but have to laugh it off.

Yesterday was an interesting thing. I finally got to post our first Recruitment Ad on Executive Appointment and I am very happy!! That was the first time I have ever done so and what an experience. It took me a whole morning to prepare that and today I have got to draft the agreement and do some postings as well.

It's going to be a busy following week, but am happy to be working...I love you Lord, KC and little one...Joining a bunch of my gfs to be happy 3s...

Will write soon...Excited about my next visit to the gynae.

CRAMPS!!! They haunt you at night

It's been a couple of days since I last wrote in this blog. Well nothing much has happened. This weeked my junior came to my place for the very first time. We have stayed in my place for two years and they finally made it!! We had so much fun I tell you!! We played this game called Saboteur...and it was worth all the fun!!

None of them noticed that I was pregnant. Well can't blame them. Even the strangers on the streets don't notice I am pregnant. I take the MRT every day having to stand in the train. But well, I guess that's a good sign now since I am still early into the pregnancy.

Last night, I woke up three times to visit the toilet and guess what? I suffered from cramps. It was no fun at all. It isn't as painful as the normal menstrual cramps...But definitely horrid. I don't enjoy one bit of it. Indeed, it is a lot that a mother has to go through to bring the little one into the world.

It's a huge sacrifice and I am indeed tired out very easily. I could sleep and laze around all day long I think!! keke...Anyway, I sent out a couple of emails to family and decided its time to think positive. Hope I can keep this mindset going for awhile longer. As the calender says today " The road will grow much smoother and much easier to face. So do not be disheartened - this is just a resting place" - Helen Steiner Rice.

Over the weekend!

Over the weekend, I had such fun with my juniors, and the following day, I met up with yi and before that ate lunch for my hubby's family. It was truly a filling lunch as we had dim sum buffet. Though there were a lot of food that I couldn't touch, however, I still enjoyed every bit of food that I could touch.

The night before, when I met up with my juniors, we had so much fun just chilling at home, having pizzas and playing saboteur. It was full of fun and laughter and we played till midnight. People who had planned to leave earlier stayed on and we were truly sucked into the game. Later which of course we cleaned up the house and ended up sleeping at 2am...But dear and I just enjoyed the time spent cleaning up our house and making it lovely again.

However, over the weekend, I developed a bit of hard of breathing. It wasn't fun at all. I had just canceled my appointment with my respiratory doctor and now I have got to return because of wheezing.

I thought everything would be smooth sailing from here on...but apparently not and I guess that's not a good sign. Thinking of whether I should go take a whiff again. Howeverm that would make me feel very tired like I feel very tired now. I wonder how it is going to be like surviving through the day.

I am feeling miserable today again. Shucks...this is definitely not good.

Another ordinary day

Today is the eve of KW's birthday. We will be celebrating his birthday during lunch.

There are tons of cold calling that needs to be done at work. I got to prepare myself and start the day slow. I guess that's been my habit ever since I started out. Later which I will swing into full force. Praying hard that the Lord's favour is one me.

Anyway, today I woke up really tired. I must have been too tired that my bladder kept all my urine inside. This morning I had a bad tummyache due to the bladder being very full. I had to release the urine inside and then my tummy felt so much better.

While I came to work, my tummy was near to the left hand side below the boobs, there were movements. However, I doubt it was the little one telling me anything. The little one is really puny to begin with at this stage.

Well I am on the half way mark to my next visit. I believe the time would fly by very fast! Excellent!! God's grace is abundant!!

Officially 2 months

Today marks the day that I am officially two months pregnant. I have a little bit of a tummy but overall I still conceal it well.

Every morning as I board the MRT train, the day when someone officially offers their seat to me, will be the day I can start talking to my little one and telling the baby how obvious my tummy has become. At this moment, I am still very much me, tossing and turning in bed.

Funny thing is they say that pregnant ladies tend to have a higher body temperature. But in all honesty, I feel my temperature has dropped some what. I feel cold easily besides feelng pukish. I hope this nausea comes to an end soon. The nausea makes me feeling like puking but I don't puke. It also brings my mood down and makes me feel dull (xian).

As time passes, I guess I got to accept the fact that I am not going to get any skinnier and I must be prepared to lose the figure that I once had. However, they always say that the joy of hearing the heart beat and seeing the baby erases all the bad thoughts of gaining weight and losing the figure.

Can't wait for the first trimester to be over. Got to keep praying and hanging on to God's promises.

A Normal Day in a life of a pregnant lady

It is another day as a consultant. The economy isn't improving and Microsoft in Singapore just announced that they are going to be carrying out a retrenchment exercise. Profits of CDL has dropped by 50% though they are optimistic that the property market in Singapore will pick up soon.

Nausea looms at the corner but is kept at bay by me eating small meals. I guess it does help to a certain extent. I get occasional bouts of puking syndrome but overall I don't puke and don't have the urge to besides feeling terribly uncomfortable in the chest area.

Every day for breakfast now, I eat a bowl of cereal with Meiji pasturise milk. I guess that's a quick solution to settling breakfast. I don't know how long I can last with eating this. It gets boring afterwhile eating the same thing over and over again I suppose. But I am tired of my hard boiled eggs as well. Haha...Maybe I should buy a small bottle of Mayonaise and make egg sandwich for breakfast. Yups...that may be better and easier to stomach with a hot glass of milo...

Well, while reading other's blog on their experience of pregnancy...it still doesn't calm my fears of what awaits me in the future days ahead. I am just thinking what would it day be like as time passes by. My tummy is starting to show and I am just wondering how big it will grow. I am also worried about stretch marks and I arduously apply my stretch mark cream every day and night. Hopefully that would prevent stretch marks from surfacing.

I also try to raise my legs so that the varicose veins doesn't appear. But I have been a little lazy when it comes to massaging my calves to prevent water retention and the swelling of my legs.

Gosh, I do feel a little tired as the day goes on but I guess the people in office and my work keeps me awake. :) I hope today will pass by quickly and that makes every other day. I can't wait for all of this to be over.

Looking forward to the day when I pop.

Enlightening news

I forgot to add. My tummy is itching quite intensively nowadays. Even after moisturizing it. I am resisting to scratch it.

Also I just got news that my hubby's good friends' wives are also pregnant and both wives are delivering around the same time as me. :) What a coincidence!! Such a wonderful discovery. It is truly God's blessing.

Starting of Nausea

Yesterday was the start of my nauseousness....And boy was it uncomfortable. It's really not fantastic that I a suffering from this really. I had motion sickness the entire day. The feeling of wanting to puke but can't puke...It's terrible.

Other than that, I am feeling swell. Had dinner on my own...Ate Hot Dog which was absolutely sumptous....I am starting to feel bloated and the lost of appetite is kicking in. It's really no fun.

Sometimes I wonder why God made pregnancy this way. But while I was reading the book EC gave me, I was amazed by the delivery of a baby. Anyway, I said a prayer this morning so that today I would be blessed with a wonderful day.

I am sure all will be well and things would be great! But not thinking of food sometimes make me want to puke. Hopefully this feeling will vanish soon.

Oh and I forgot to mention, I feel extremely lethargic at times. But well, I have got to work. So let's start the day knowing that God is in control.

The feeling is slowly kicking in

Today is not such a good day. I am feeling a bit nausea. Yups, the feeling is slowly kicking in. But thank God I still don't have it that bad. I guess JC is right to say pray about it and it won't occur.

Anyway, I have been having it lucky since I am into my 7th week and I am not suffering as much as some mums are. :)

On Friday, I went home a little early and when I was on the cab, I started suffering from motion sickness....So I had no choice but to lie down to rest when I reached home. Soon enough, I found myself sprawled on the sofa sleeping till dinner time. I don't know what came over me but I was so tired.

Weekend was fun. I went shopping for some new clothes. And then ended up playing mj with some friends and losing till my pant dropped. But all was in good fun...haha...

I shall stay positive always. Life is wonderful just living it out. Expecting the unexpected and finding joy in the littliest things. Wonder what I will be having tonight and thinking what I will be wearing tomorrow!!!